There are too many things that I was supposed to do.
I have to get up in the morning, eat three meals in a day, brush my teeth, check e-mails, go shopping and brah-brah-brah....I don`t even know who decided those things.
I often have the feeling that I really wanna do nothing, nothing but lay down.
But it`s called lazy and It`s like the worst thing I can ever do.
Why all the people out there look like having fun in being so active?
Have they already found the funniest person for them in their lives? maybe the best person, or whatever.
But that`s impossible.
Cause we can`t really meet lots of people in our lives. Our lives are too short to find out the best person ever.
And also, we have that stupid unspoken rule that we cannot just talk to the stranger.
So, I can`t even talk to the guy which is very cool and atractive just because he sits next to me on the train.
I feel like I`m stuck in my boring life forever, sometimes.
Possibly, I could be excited temporarily when I did something considered to be exciting, stuffs like movies, travels, sexes, drinking, lalalalala.
But I always have to come back. come back to the room alone, come back to the world that I have so many things that I supposed to do.
This is me complaining about my life, and I don`t always do that, really.
Most of my life, I don`t even think about these type of things.
But, tonight, I do.
Probably because I couldn`t finish the things I was supposed to do and I`m not proud of myself at all. Probably, I`m being lazy, and I feel so small. Good night.
